Sydney : Photo Diary I

being vulnerable.

hello world, lets get personal.

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so sharing my feelings and thoughts was never been one of the contents on this artsypride blog as i always thought that being vulnerable is a sign of weakness. but little did i know that being vulnerable and getting through a heartbreak has expanded my world in the most positive and empowering way, and so i thank God for putting me through this one hell of a journey that i simply call 'a lesson learnt'.

i don't fully know myself yet, but i know for a fact is that i hate changes. i like routines, i like following plans and making plans in advance, ensuring that i am in control of my life. so migrating to perth was very brand new not just for me but for my mother as well. i felt obliged to ensure mum was getting used to this alienated lifestyle but it took me long to realise that i was the one who needed help mentally and emotionally the most to get my life back together where it was once so perfect and beautiful. 

i broke down with my mind and heart shattered.

my best friend once told me that 'sometimes things don't come full circle' , i instantly fell in love with that quote because it was by acknowledging that ugly truth that made me realize that people are different. we all have different views, personalities, principles and most of all: values. what you give is not what you get, what you hear is often not the truth, how you feel will never again be his concern. so from that moment, i chose to gracefully let go for a better and happier me.

and of course it wasn't easy. it was beyond excruciating after knowing the truth behind all those sugar coated words : lies. 

maybe because it was my first love or maybe i was in denial about how a person who once loved you the most would be also the person to hurt you the deepest consciously. perhaps even without guilt. it is scary, isn't it? Our lives are in constant motion where time is seemingly our enemy. some relationships adapted oh so comfortably but some evaporated oh so quickly and soon vanishes. mine unknowingly took the second path but trust me, time heals. 

they say you will never fully understand love until you have once hurt. well, i guess i have. love has permanently changed me as a person, i understood what it can do to me, how it can make me feel and how deep i can fall. And from that, i started focusing on the beautiful things that each of family and friends have brought into my life and painted it with effortless grace - over, and over again. 

it is okay to be vulnerable because being vulnerable made me feel so human and letting go is the best decision that i have made in my life.

For those who are loving, love unconditionally and sincerely. And for those who are searching for love, wait patiently and respectfully.

2014, you have taught me well.

Stefan Zsaitsits

it's been awhile artsypride x i am finally back to get this blog up and running again!

there is no better way to start this post by introducing Stefan Zsaitsits, an artist that caught my attention on a typical 'lazy thursday tumblr scrolling day', enjoy x 

 Puppet 

Pencil on Paper

50 x 70 cm

 House 

Pencil on Paper

50 x 70 cm

Monster

Pencil on Paper

50 x 70 cm

Acrobat

Pencil on Paper

50 x 70 cm

Ape

Pencil on Paper

50 x 70 cm

my interpretation of 'Ape' 

the last time i analyzed an art piece was during my HSC Art examinations in 2013 where i tried of find the most insignificant element in the art piece and make it sound rather deep to simply please the examiner, hoping for a decent score.  

However, 'Ape' is one of those piece where i could relate and easily describe in one sentence : everything we see in life is seemingly just an image of what individuals want to be portrayed as, it may be true but always remember to keep your heart guarded because even the apes know that human beings are hurtful creatures . 

so close your eyes and always follow what your heart says , not just what your eyes see. 

Bali with my Ladies x